No amount of vintage dresses give you dignity

wow, it has been a while. A long while.
I guess you can say I've been busy this summer, and now university has started. I still find it hard to believe I am actually in university.
If I rewind time back by three years I would never had even dreamed of getting this far. It is an amazing feeling. It really is, and I'm excelling. It half makes we want to rub it into the faces of some of my teacher, I am sure a lot of them never anticipated i would end up where I am now. it truly is a great feeling.

So much has also changed. There are only 5 people of all of those I spend time with, almost wasted time with that I still consider good friends. There were so many in high school that it felt like one needed to impress, and a mere three years pass and I can't help be feel like I wasted so much time trying to morph into something they would have accepted, all that time was essentially just thrown away, but then again, I was young and naive, how I was suppose to know how things would turned out.

All that counts now is that I've learned, grown since then, I know I don't need to pretend, I am me, and no one can take that away from me. If you don't like me. Then you are not worth my time.
simple as that, and simple as
six words,
21 letters.
Good Bye, have a Nice Life.

Let's Kill tonight.

Okay. So here is the deal.
I WANT TELL YOU TO GO FUCK YOURSELF.
But then again,
I do not want to go and blow it out of proportion.
But I'm Pissed.
Really.
Really pissed. And there is a legitimate reason.
Him.
Starts with J.
ends with a
N.
And I am just at my breaking point.
perhaps. It's complicated.
Yes, I understand doing nothing is boring.
But then again, not wanting to do anything i propose is just about the same.
SO DON'T COMPLAIN!

So what i want to say is. I am not ready to give up. I am scared he is.
which is very very very scary. Like, argh. It makes me cry. and a whole lot more. But I'm trying. I'm a student i don't have millions to go blow like your stupid friend. But that does not give you the right to ditch me for them. I see you two fucking days of the week and you don't even make an effort, it's heart breaking.
So, I'm hope he grows out of it. or Bye Bye us i guess.
Sadly.



On brighter news, CEGEP is almost done :)

You're trading heart beats baby.

So, here is the thing.
I'm stuck. very stuck.
You see, I am very happy. But I sometimes get thinking and then questions my happiness,which I do not believe is a bad thing, Aristotle said a good life is a life of contemplation. So it is perfectly fine to question thing. But what the real problem is that this contemplation is making me think and want the attention of someone. Someone from whom i should not be seeking attention from. That is the problem. And like seriously, if I was currently single i would not even second guess him. Oh well, I will push it to the back of my mind to think about another time.

off to Montreal. chow.

You could have been something, you could have been something memorable.

It is weird. Really weird. There is this guy I know. I used to talk to him often, we hung out a lot too. we half lost contact. Especially with college and all. But our parents still see each other because our brothers play hockey together. Which makes losing contact with him quite pathetic, actually. Anyway, to get to the point. Our parents have been talking and I feel as if they are almost trying to hook us. which slightly scares me. One because well it would be slightly odd if my mom tried to break me and my boyfriend up to have me go out with someone else. I just find it weird. But it may not be so abnormal, I guess if the parents do not like their children's boyfriend or girlfriend it may not be so abnormal. Oh well. Sometimes I find it is funny because my mom is like Omg. He thinks you are really pretty. Omg. you have so much stuff in common. It makes me laugh. What bothers me the most about all this is that we could have dated. IN the tenth grade I had the biggest crush on him. It was crazy. And well I guess I half stopped liking him. Met my boyfriend and my feelings changed. I just hope Our parents do not do anything stupid and end up hurting someone.

I tried to be cool but you're so hot that I melted

Party!!!!!!
It was fun. Alot of fun. And no complaints. Just awesome. And now 90210. Which is alot better than i believed it to be. But will never beet gossip girl :P.

I think what i liked the most about yesterday was, well actually there are two things. That i was able to sucessfully bring together two groups of comepletly different ppl. And also finnaly setting things strait with a certain someone i used to be friends with. It felt great. Especially since ut has been heeld back for song long. The worst and funniedt part was when she attempted to lecture me on drinking lol

Well time to eat. Tata for now.