drenched in vanilla twilight, i'll sit on the front porch all night

One word.
well maybe two.
AMAZINGLY HOT.
yes. yes. yes.
the aquintance is done, emails and profiles, all that is left is Mastering the flirting with out being obvious and getting phone numbers.
oh, and did i say how HOT he was lol.
and have family in europe, even better hehe lol.

i love europe, and just can't wait to go in december. about 28 days until i leave. i can't wait to see my nata babay :) oh how i love her <3

hold me now i need to feel complete, like i matter to the one i need.

I want my best friend.
i wish i could find a time machine and fast forward to Decemeber 22, when i finaly see her again.
i just miss her so much
31 days <3

I just want to know what your best friend knows

guys say we're complicated but i beg to differ.
Especialy in the perdicament that i currently am in. wow. that sounds retareded.
anyway. to the point.
if we are so complicated then why are they spending all their free time with us other then their girlfriend, wearing our sports shirts and even flirt back at times,and also never bring up the girl friend after showing us a song written for them. Why the frick to they do this. I know for me it is getting quite annoying. i want to do somthing but then there is her. all the signs point to the possibility, but then SHE is there. it's like argh.
either break up with the damn chick or stop with all the flirty crap. it's like a big slap in the face.
My biggest concern really is what is going on in HIS head. is it really just a newly developed good friendship, or the beginning of something more.

Damn What's your name

Jerika. Thank you jerika, for showing this song to me.


I dont know about everyone else, but i love His Voice <3

Would you trade that heart of cold for a minute in my skin

Ugh. I hate how when things seem perfect they ALWAYS mess up. Its getting to the point where i seriously dont know why i even bother anymore. If your not going to give a shit, then why should I? It's NOt likei dont already have enough things to worry about. What makes it worst is for once in my life everything felt right, everything with my friends is great, no drama,no issues, nothing. School was and still is great. If Only things at home could have still been the same. I try to ignore the problems. which i seem really good at. It makes things easier that way, i dont have to worry about friends being all "omg are you okay" and often i completely forget about it and can enjoy myself with my friends. But there is always somthing the ends up bringing it up in the end. especially when ima round them too.. I'm at home for a whole 48 hours on the weekends and its enough time for my mom to bitch at more for countless retarded reason and to say how much she hates me.
What a perfect life.
I could easily fix the problem, find a job in the city. then i dont have to worry about that bull. but they;ll call every day asking a million questions which doesnt help. and i miss my cat and enjoy two days of not having to make myself supper.
i just wish things would calm down, and go back to how it was those two months when school first started im really getting sick of all this.

Can We Fast Forward to Go Down On Me

blahh, i hate how things are ALWAYS complicated. There is always that great guy, the one who makes you laugh, who you can talk to, who seems to be just about everything you want. But he is also everything another person wants, and your just the friend, but you get the vibe of maybe something else, but you have the problem of the other person and the friendship.
i hate it. why do they have to do this.
But my biggest concern if that I'm reading into this completely wrong to. like hey, maybe he was just being himself, all i know is that im somewhat confused and i really wanna talk to him. it has become a habit. maybe a bad habit, but i love it just the same. and i don't want to mess anything up, i love having him as a friend and i dint want to make enemies.
however, i wouldn't mind it at all if there is really something :)
and like he says, this is cegep, its not about relationships :P

rain, rain, go away, come again some other day

blahhh. today officially sucked.
if i were to blame it on anything it would be the weather, and the teacher for not canceling the damn trip.
you see, today, my semi intensive (bullshit) gym class had a trip to Mont Royal. Which is a place I've actually wanted to go for a long time. however, the whether today sucked ass. it was half raining all misty and kinda cold. so we saw shit all when we looked over, got all wet, i got blood on one of my favorite sweaters because my ear lob randomly decided to bleed, and blue over head marker on it ass well because the rain washed it all ont us. what a load of fun.. :(
being the geniuses that we were we got far behind of the walk and ended up going the wrong way, i would have jogged part of it, but no one wanted, i should have though. i wouldn't have been so far behind if i had. we also messed up the scavenger hunt, we completely missed the 268 steps we had to take to go down to peel, which doesn't actually bother me to much. we guessed the answers and got them right :p lol. but the day still sucked.

what also made it worst is i had to use public transport to get there. i really don't mind taking the metro, but i sucks when you don't know where you haveto get off or what bus to take. we missed our bus by 3 minutes and got at the chalet just in time. but now i can say i was able to use the metro by myself. which I'm proud to say. I'm really not used of it and almost got lost XD I'm that hopeless.

anyways. im off to have supper. I'm quite hungry and my sociology homework needs to be done.
xx Sam

lying there with a halo in her hair she cried, there are feathers everywhere but it's fine, you do this all the time.

this was corrected but my internet messed up and it didnt save and im to lazy to go over it again....


Life is weird, there is no other way to put it. it is genuinly weird.

there isnt anything wrong with that either, i'm actualy glad that its weird and unexpected, because if everything went as if it's suppsoed to be, nothing ever unexpectidly change it woudl be horrible. Imagine how borring that would be, suicide rates would certainly be at a record high if it ever happened.

Anyways, back to what im getting to.

I dont think i've every been more content in my life. it's strange really, you'd think being swamped with home work and tests to study for, boyfriend's being weird, my roomates messy friends (who are actualy pretty kool) the new concept of living on my own and the 6th of october fastly approaching id be rather nervouse, stress and probably slightly down. But i'm not. I dont feel down in anyways.

i think it's partly because of the people im around, back in highschool i spent so much time worry about stupid rumours and things that didnt matter and people who couldnt care less that it just brought me down. but now, that i'm away from all these people i dont have to worry about them and their bull so i'm happier. thats my theory anyways.

it coudl just be someone dosed my juice and i've unconciously been high on somthing for the past month. i'm more for the first conclusion :P.

anyways. Sociology calls, and i cant afford to mess up tomorrows test. freeking 20%, scary thought. anyways. chowxx

It got old, but you cant blame it all on me

wow. it seems as if so much has happened.
cegep, living on my own, break ups, back togetherness, another break up, another (secret) relationship, new friends, new roommates, broken door, iffy friends, homework. its all overwhelming. and all with a month as welll.
its horrible. some of thing things i can't really grasp properly either. Like. i partially feel like a whore. because, if you break it down i left my ex for a past love. i guess you could say. and i do really really like my bf. and i had waited so long that when the opportunity came i just couldn't say no. but it couldn't have come at any worst of a time. and there's the fact that my best friend doesn't like him. it kinda sucks. sometimes i think i should have waited and see. because like hey. this all might be a mistake. but if it is i'll just learn form it and deal with the mess it leaves when the time comes. any-who. on to other things. CEGEP
And well, it is just the best. i really love it. my course are great. minus my English class. we are completely re-learning how to write an essay. i think by the time i reach CEGEP i know how to write an essay, i've been doing it for only 4 years now, i think i know what im doing. to give an example who how pathetic it is, today was our theird class on how to write an introduction and making a good thesis. pathetic. i know. and to top it off. in im the highest english at my CEGEP. English used to be one of my favorite classes. as it is obvious my spelling and grammar are really not up to par. but i love to write and i enjoy most literature. but other then english being a shity class my other classes are pretty interesting and my schedule is to die for. :) i'd hate to brag, but i'm normally done by 3 every day of the week and i dont have the annoying 2 or three hour breaks between my classes; however, i do start at 8 everyday of the week excluding Friday. which i actually like, i can go out lat eon thursdays and i can sleep in on fridays. its great.

I absolutely love my new friend's ive made. they're great. abd really funny. i've really got my psych teacher to thank for it too. because if she hadn't made us turn around and say high to the people behind us i would have never met them. we're all pretty different but we all seem to get along really well. which i really like. and they aren't drama & attention craving people. which is nicee. im really sick of drama.

Now i can't decided

Hmmm. Methinks that i will from now on put my blends on here. Althought i can't decided if i should change the credits on my blends to Lalaxprincess, keep them all ikissedagirl. past and make furture ones. or just make future ones Lalaxprincess and screw the other stuff.

we'll see. for now. these have ikissedagirl on them.

I've got you, Insprired from the song I've got you, By Mcfly.

This one have lyrics from ignorance By Paramore.

There is somthing missing in the blend. But for now i cant figure out what.

Love Drunk. Inspried by Love Drunk By Boys Like Girls

I'd Lie. Inspried from I'd Lie By Taylor swift. I'm very happy with this one :)

Change. This one was insprired from on of my favorite song. Pages, By There For Tomorrow. I love the picture as well. but now i think that i shoudl have used a different one. But oh well. I'm still happy with it :)

all the photography & patterens &brushes & Actions all come from various Deiviant art useres. People of that site are amazing :D

Steel my stuff and i will hurt you :) the Vampire cat will hunt you down!!

I feel creative :D

This lovely Creature lost about two weeks ago near a small river just outside of Whoville. Although me appears adorable and friendly. He has more werewolf to him then needed and is very dangerous. If you see him call this number 12345678. Or feel free to run away :P

The Vampire Cat. Have you ever wondered what happens when a cat is bitten by a vampire? well ask no more. here is the result. it feeds off of other cats. can only come out at night. sleeps all day. doesn't like regular cat food. and flys around like bat. Its not something you'd want to encounter on a night out. It may feed on only cats. But there are some vegetarian vampire cats out there.

There teridactile elephant with a scorpion tail. Not much is known about this creature. Only that it is incredibly dangerous and are found North of Whoville. Ever since this massive creature made North of Whoville it's home the traumatised Whovilles have had to comprimise their Christmas traditions for the Teridactile Elephant feeds mainly on Evergreen Trees. In order to not make their lovely trees become Extinct the Whovillians no longer use Evergreens as Christmas trees anymore. They hope the the Teridactile Elephant will leave soon so they can return to their normal ways.

The Devil Butterfly. They love to drink. cant most commonly be found out and about in early mornings drinking spilled bear off of tables and the few drops left in alcohol bottles. this creature isn't very harmless, it'll only attack if one takes it's alcohol. One can also make deals with this little fellow. But beware. he may be small. but he is just as cunning and selfish as the devil himself.

i give you the Dinoparrot. This ferocious beast was discover about 20minutes ago on Windows live Messenger by chance. The Awed discoverers are Samantha And Chris. :P

You ain't impressin' me much

omg omg omg


some people are just, like I don't even know how to say this. Pathetic? i guess. I shouldn't really talk, for I'm not all the innocent either. But seriously. all they must really have nothing better to do & when they 'flaunt' their stuff. they ain't doing it very well XD
anyways. it was fun to laugh. boring as hell tho. maybe if it was someone else. and i was there with them helping them along :P well it might be different.

Oh well. There are all all kinds of people in the world. some have it. some don't.
And maybe next time he'll have something Impressive. XD

I want it so bad i shoot the sunshine into my viens

Home alone all week?
*gasp*


B-O-R-I-N-G

its nice not having steven bugging me. but like im soo bored. since im like not working. other ppl are and i can't go anywhere because i was to stupid to get my license when i turn 16.
blahhh. i need to do somthing. and i dont really want to read right now. i want somone kool to come over or go to the city or somthing. :(
i want natalie!!! lol

okay. I'm done rambling now.
i'll just crank up the volume.
get crative and whish natalie was here so we coudl hang out :P

Hate is a strong word. but i really really really really don't like you.

i hate you

i hate you

i hate you

i hate you

i hate you

got it?

i absolutely hate you.


i wish you'd fall off the face of the earth or into a deep whole and never find a way out.
I only have a few more years to deal with your ugly face and literally childish ways
You won't have her there to protect you forever and don't ever think I'll be there for you
you dug your own hole.
and soon you'll be all alone
or 30 still living in your mama's basement living off of hot dogs.

I hate you

My Mask is Growing heavy and i have forgoten who is beneath

It seems as if sometimes we try soo hard to be something we aren't just to please other. We talk, dress, act and even try to think differently just to impress others. People who was think are our friends. We want to blend in so badly that we no longer know who we are. We've become some half hearted version of ourselves. The real us fighting hard against the make up, the clothes, the attitudes, but everything is so caked on that we can't break through; we just fall deeper and deeper. Losing our true selves.
Some people say they are different from others. Unique hair, Odd and unknown music makes up their play lists and their indescribable style. But are they really being that original. Yes, they may not be dressing like their friends or people around them. But are they being themselves? Or just what being different is supposed to look like.
You may appear differently from everyone else, but are you really all that different. Nothing is being more different then being yourself. Everyone is different, we all have our own little quirks. our own style, weather it be if you like green more then purple. its what inevitability sets us apart from everyone else. making you be your own person. not some fake doll some magazine says you should look like, or what the other kids expect from you.
If the you friends don't except you for who you are then they aren't your friends. Its that simple. it's hard to grasp at first, But Once you realize that you aren't being yourself anymore and stop the charade and they begin to complain or marginalize you. It will be obvious. It's hard at first. You feel like everything you've known is gone. but eventually you find better friends. people who actually like you for who YOU are. You'll be much more happier, nothing is a charade anymore.
Personally, I've been through all this and I've never been happier. I've found who my real friends are. That they don't care about my odd obsession with books and book characters. or that i enjoy anime. they support my writing instead of making fun of it. I enjoy all my time with them and i know that if i tell them something the whole world won't withing the next few minutes. i don't find myself wasting money on this that i don't need or clothes i won't ever wear again. They don't criticise me of talking to certain people. Over all, It's really worth it to take the risk and be Yourself. Find friends who like you for you. It may be hard at first. But you'll be happier in the long run. Life if only so long, we shouldn't waste our time on people who could care less about us to begin with.

"i'm like not even supposed to be german! i just randomly am!"

Nothing gold can stay. (from a poem. don't remember the author...)

Sadly, that couldn't be any truer.

On Sunday June 28Th we all had to say goodbye to a very special someone.

A person who is very very special to me. And all those miles between won't be able to break our friendship. She is my other half. and for the first time every i can actually say this about someone. i know that i can call her in the middle of the night pissed drunk and she wouldn't care. And its the same for me if she called. I will always be there for her. as well as her for me.

and in a little less then 3 months I will be finally able to see her again. :)

A few snap shot of the party.
we all had a good time, even though it would be the last time many of us would be seeing our friend.

Annie, mike, Andrea and Dom.

Me and Natalie. I miss her so much.

All the way across the ocean. but she will Never be forgotten. She means to much to all of us.

We all love you Natalie :)

Forever for one more night <3

i wish we could be together for ever. Besties for life :)

I Used to be Love Drunk, But Now i'm Hung Over?

I used to be love drunk, But now I'm hungover, Love is forever, Forever is over, We used to kiss all night, Now it's just a bar fight, So don't call me crazy, Say hello then goodbye

It would seem as that is the case. Sadly.
There just seems to be something not right.
I hate to say it too.
but he isn't the one i want to call when things aren't right. he isn't the one who makes me smile with just the thought of his name. He isn't the one that i want to introduce to all my friends. he isn't the one i want to spend all me free time with.
he should be. And i feel horrible not wanting him to be the one i go to.
But sometimes you just can't help it.
People grow apart.
And sometimes they are just temporary replacements. It sounds horrible.
but you don't notice it till it actually happens.
you think you really really like the person, but in reality the are only a temporary fix for something else. something someone created that you just can't forget about.
But maybe I'm wrong. and time can fix this. i can only hope, because i don't want to lose him. he may not be my everything.
but he still is something.

HIghschool never ends

Graduation.
It's a big deal to many and a day that couldn't have came faster for some
for me, well i didn't see this day as such a hugh excited and terrific day. I didnt want to graduate. I was finaly comfortable with the school and getting involved in different activities made it even more enjoyable and i really didnt want to say goodbye to some of my teachers.
One thing i was looking forward to was the end of highschool drama. Or what i thought would be the end of it. i was wrong tho. It seems as if Things have suddenly gotten worse. NOt only is one of my best friend being a total retard and is pushing every one away. SHe also broke up with her Boyfriend who is also One of my good friends. What ever their problems are is their Perogative and they can do what they wish with their lives; but i wish that people would just stop bugging me about it.
And, Enough with the stupid Rumours. argh. it's so freaking annoying. WHy the hell would Natalie sleep with her Best friend's Boyfriend. she ain't no WHore. ANd SHe deffinatly woudl never do that.
It Just pisses me off that poepl assume stuff like that. and then go and repeat it with out even knowing it for sure. Or that A certain person might actualy think its ture. Like seriously. come on.

SOme poeple just frustrate me so much. And i guess. Drama is just somthing that will always be there. and that we all will always have to deal with. but i just really people who get a life. do you seriosuly have nothing better to do?

it feels like summer, but you're far away from me when i need you here

I count down the days until we say goodbye

I wish there was a way that i could just stop time

forever, remember

i always knew the day would come. but it always seemed so far away.
Months. Weeks. Days.
Before i knew it, the day had arrived and i have no choice but to say goodbye.
It's soo hard.
I'm so used of always being able to call her anytime.
Spend my weekends with her.
taking stupid pictures and laughing at nothing.
i miss her so much
and i wish i had spent more time with her before she had to leave.
she'll be back in otober but idk what i will do all the days till then.
she's my other half. my partner in crime. and my very best friend.
Love you so much and i can't wait to see you again.

We're chasing dreams like every legend before us

OMG.

we're graduated.
congradulations class of 2009 :)

I seriously can't believe it. It feels so weird knowing that I'm not going to be returing to that big old brick building next year. And it's no hard not to cry during the little moments when I realize that I'm no longer a highschool student.

you talk like you're famous, you're shamless

gone :)

now all i want to know is who the hell made it!

and why?



Don't be shy, i might just be a little angry at you, for a little while. Until something else pisses me off. it's no bigy.

Back it up, back it up, if you're talking shit to me.

Coincident or artificially created by a bunch of two faced hoes?

...

You know that little susgestion box thing that is on your facebook home page? The one that susgest friends and pages and what not? Well, Much to my surprise today I noticed a name there that looked very familier. I am aware of the fact that there are more then one Samanatha Cote who have an account on facebook, but one that has the same birthday date as me. Year, month day. One that goes to the same school as me and has the same cegep that i plan to attened next year as their cegep. Well, that makes me start to wonder where the line of coincident ends and where fake profile created by a bunch of losers that have nothing better to do starts. Because seriously, I think I would know if there was another girl at my school who had the exact same birthday and name as me.

I also know that it can't be a mishap on my part, because when I created my user I had no idea what cegep I was going to. Or that there is a CEGEP call Champlain St. Lambert.

This just pisses me off so much. because really. Why? why do that. do you really have nothing better to do?

Have you ever wanted to dissapear

It's always the same god forsaken thing. The same old song stuck on a continuous repeat that you cant stop. It makes you want to scream so loud you shatter the window, Makes you want to rip off you skin, crawl into a hole and never come out.

Your friends can't relate to you because they just don't know how it feels either, it's just not something they're had to live with.
Reading about it in books is also very different from living it out.
It may never actually be all that serious either, a little roughing up here and there. but there's always the what if. What if it happens when she's not there to back you up, not there to stop him.

Not there to save you.

Pushing it out of your mind only helps for the moment. It's comes back worst with other things adding making it all that much more unpleasant.

And its funny how hard it is to say that one silable word. Help.

I kissed a girl, and i liked it!

Since Photoshop = loves I think you should check this out :


www.-ikissedagirl-.piczo.com


And you'll like it :P

Its a blend site.

If you don't know what a blend is; well it's a picture made up of cropped & edited pictures with added Brushes (pictures and or designs and or textures on top of the pictures that you add to pictures on Photoshop) to make another picture. Here is an example of a blend :P

Beautiful isn't it?

There is added text, Two pics and a brush.

Anyways, if you want to see more go to www.-ikissedagirl-.piczo.com and check them out. The blends are by moi and Meeca. Enjoy :)

Me thinks I'm dissapointed

Shoot me now.
but Kaleidoscope, was well, not all that enjoyable. i understand the Thursday afternoon show is the first time these kids are performing their dances in front of an audience, but still. many of them have done it before. they should know that you DON'T move from your final pose till after ALL the spot lights are off, or else everyone sees you move and sadly you look retarded. But that's not what bothered me the most.

CENSORSHIP.

okay, i can understand that dancing involves some questioning poses and ass shaking, but posing sexy behind a white curtain and in a box. i think not. as well as super short revealing dresses for a dance where you're being lifted in the air?? oh, and all the groping. it's amazing the dance teachers even let it pass. And seriously, why did they, when a parent sees the show and all the sexuality (i can't think of any better word for it) the first person they're going to want to see if the dance teacher and why the hell they let it pass. Kaleidoscope as a whole represents the dance department and what they portray.

One good thing about this year's Kaleidoscope was that there wasn't one song used three times. There's nothing worst then going to a dance show and hearing one song multiple times, even if its in a remix. There was also a lot of change up in the type of dances which was really good. because after seeing one 'amature' hip hop dance, you've pretty much seen them all. The Secondary four dances were easily the best dances, and they weren't all that complicated or Slutty either. Which shows, you don't need to be a slutty dancer to be a good one. they were almost always on time and the girls new their dances and didn't look extremely uncomfortable. The moves weren't extremely hard either which also shows that you don't need an extremely challenging dance to look good either.

I believe that Kaleidoscope was a flop this year because of the extreme amount of sexuality in the dancing; however, it was a lot better then last years.

ahhhh!

Drama makes up a big part of highschool life.
boys, girls, sex and new friendships are just some of the many causes of drama, but sometimes, people take nothing and spin it around into something that is just plane rediculous and causes a much unneeded as well a retarded excuse of drama.

Just because some people have decided to accept a person's freship requestion on a social networking site does not mean they are out to get you. haven't you ever thought that they just accept people who have friends in commen with them or like to meet new people. Or that the person had no idea that you were that person's friend. New friendships are nothing to freak out about. i personaly love makeing new friends and hate it when people have fits about it. who cares if i'm friends with someone who would seem to be my total opposite or is from another country. i've having forign friends, you get to learn so much about people form a different countries and don't oppisits attract?

I think some people need to lighten up. we have enough drama in ourlives we dont need some more. next time you're annoyed with a your friend adding someone knew to their list of friends. keep it to yourself. because alot of times, a person doesnt talk to half of the people in their friends list, they are just names on a virtual list.

Seven days and six more nights to go

[[well, more like six days and five nights.]] :P

OMG

it's almost time.
and the excitement is flowing over the edge.

time seemed to speed up for a months time, and now. that it's less then a week, it seems like time couldn't go any slower.

this trip is going to bring allot of first for me, my first time on a plane, first time over seas, longest time spent away from home, as well as my parents and the first time in a place that doesn't speak just French or English.

it's going to be so much fun. I'm glad i didn't cancel.

we'll swallow you forever

Rules are all fine and dandy, but sometimes they just piss me off. Like yesterday, you know we're encourage to read right? well, i went to renew my book and the librarian was all like 'Oh, I'm sorry, but you cant renew it.' the problem. someone had reserved it. Okay, i can understand that that yes, the guy wanted to read it, but i was only half way through, shouldn't i be able to renew it? the only way i could keep the book is keep it past date then pay them back. if i wanted to pay for the book i would have went out and bought it. so now, i have to wait till the kid finishes the book, or goes to renew it and cant. the worst part is the book was just getting good :(

so now i have a grudge against the school library.

rules suck.

I also don't get why here in canada they have the drinking level up so high, when in Europe you can drink legally at 16. at the age of 16 we all sneak alcohol anyways, so why not raise the level, it'll minimize the sneaking around and probably allot of the binge drinking as well. when something is restricted and you sneek it, you'll most likely abuse it more then when you're always aloud to take it. there's nothing that screams 'excitement' as something forbidden does. so why don't we Canadians do like our 'relatives' across the see and lower the drinking age.

Feels just like I'm loosing control

Its seems as if everyday school seems to be getting longer and longer, and it's becoming harder to concentrate. The worst part is that it isn't even all that nice out yet. the weather has been getting nicer, which doesn't help, but i cant image how it will be once summer actually gets here. sitting creamed in a small class with about 30 students is going to be unbearable, especially with one that doesn't have windows.

the school year is coming to an end and i couldn't be any more excited. i want to get out of high school, but I'm also scared of what this summer will bring. it's going to be the beginning of a new chapter of my life. i want to enjoy my first summer as a high school graduate, the urge to do absolutely nothing is there, except i have to work. i need to pay for my education. oh how being rich sounds so good right now.

as for losing control, many things seem to completely out of control. time especially, everything is going by so fast. Germany is in less then two weeks. I'm overly excited, and before i know it all I'll have left are countless pictures of time spent there. i so often wish i could find a time machine, or a 'time turner' like in harry potter and go back in time and do things over, not making the sames mistakes and do things i wish i had done. life is so short. you shouldn't take the chance and hold back, go with your gut instinct. life is to short to regret everything.

I Don't hate you... actualy, I do.

okay, this is an old post and i found it and liked it and i have no clue why it wasnt published. but its being publish now :D


So there was this kid.

and every one hates him

and I'm stuck with him, all the time.

hell on earth

it's not just disagrements, or rivalry anymore.

it's pure hate

i now knwo why some people do certian unforgivable actions.

if they have to deal with someone like him every day i wouldn't blame them.

the person whose dead is the real problem.

sometimes we just cant put up them anymore.

is it our faults that the person has to be so fricking intolerable.

no.

it's that persons fault

and after 15 years of trying to ignore them

eventualy you can't anymore.

you just break.

and they happen to be around

and the cause

and you just can't hold yourself back anymore

and the next thing you know,

it's peacefull

nomore retarded ass kid driving the hell out of you.







sadly, the world doesnt seem to think the dead people are the one to blame, so you cant do anything, you just have to hope that one day he'll just fall into some pit and get left there. or someone else takes it apon themselves to do it for you.

or that maybe, the kid might just realize that NO ONE LIKES HIM, and he'll start leaving us alone.

This is an emergency, so are you listening?

Some teachers just don't that we're not all little Einsteins, that we have lives and need sleep. My french teacher especially seems to believe this. She just gave us this huge ass Research paper to due, not only is it our second language, it's also 5 pages long, and we have about a zillion stupid little details to put in that are worth about 20 marks each, we also only have 3 classes to do it. and did i say how much it's worth? 75 fricking percent of our term mark.

Insane? yes, i believe so

Seriously though, doesn't she realize that we have other classes that we have work to do in. i have a speech to write for this Friday, which is not started yet because I'm waiting for TVA to reply my email so i can get info to start it, there's also an English research paper that i have to do. Luckily my teacher is actually decent and gives us about a month to do one that's half the size of the french one and doesn't have half of the stupid things we have to do for French.

i showed the paper my french teacher gave us saying what we need in our essay to my friends, who are in enriched classes, at a french school and she doesn't do stuff like this. she agrees that the teacher has problems. Like having to highlight 20 enriched words and using them in the paper, putting letters after all these stupid questions that we have to answer and the time giving to do it. and my mom think's it's stupid as well.

there is no way possibly I'm going to be able to get it done. and like the teacher is like well, if you don't use your class time better then i wont be able to give you more class time to work on it and after two classes you'll have to hang it in. dude, we don't have to work on it in class. we can do stupid grammar exercises and do the work at home. it's a lot easier that way, more work will get done and like you can give us a week or two more to work on it. it's a win, win situation. but being the retarded ass that she is, she wont do that. it's too nice.

Save us, this city's contagious

If there is one thing that is really annoying, and I mean down to the bone annoying is when sometime copies you, or one of your friends. There's this girl in my grade, and it's as if she's trying to dress just like one of my friends. Like come on, there a difference with being inspired by some one's fashion sense and strait out copying her. it's fashion plagiarism for crying out loud. and the worst part is, she does it and looks hideous. her pants are to tight and to lose in the wrong places, and she cannot walk in heals.
sometimes friends dress alike, they have similar styles and they have pieces of clothing that are the same or resemble each other, but they don't dress exactly alike, they don't do the same coloured pants with the same coloured shirt and same kind accessory. when everything is exactly the same it just becomes frustrating. like jeez, find yourself your own style, your own signature, give that style your own special twist instead or mimicking hers.
Copying a persons style makes you seem fake, a wannabee, and most likely you don't want to be her. so it's best to not dress like some to not give off that vibe. Because, if you do, there's a 99% chance that you will get picked on about it, people will comment, it's the way of life. especially at a high school.


This one's for you kaka :P

Scream it Like You Mean it!

On Friday another bad will be playing :). it's the third this year, and also the first performance from a school band. Go In Progress. It's going to be fun, seeing fellow class mates up there rocking their hearts out. What's really cool about them is that they are actually really good, most of the time the bands from Massey suck ass. Don't get me wrong, the musicians are really talented but they are all the same genre and they're lyrics aren't even words. It's just some random guy screaming into a microphone. It's not entertaining at all, and it gives everyone a killer headache.
I'm really excited for the show, and i really really hope that people stay and watch this time. the first band had a great turn out. there were kids everywhere. The last band, well, lets just say they weren't as popular, the cafeteria was full... until people finished their lunches and left. Which is very discouraging for the Band.
So we'll Cross our fingers and hope the students are more enthusiastic about this show.

My Ship is sinking, I'm thining I'm done for.

Ahhh.
Okay, this is so not fair; March break is almost over! I hate it!. It feels like if it only started yesterday, and that i did absolutly nothing. which, in a sence is kind of true. I sat in bed for most of the week, but hey, that's what a break from school is all about :D. The thing is, i feel like i've acomplished nothing, I normaly work all of the break, which is very tiring, but the money is a nice thing. :)
I'm suposed to go shopping with a friend, and i really, really, really, want to go, i haven't spent time with her in a long time. And she's a good friend of mind. i miss spending time with her, but our scheduals never work out. which sucks ass. Hopefully my mom will take us on monday *cross fingers*
I've done one thing(half done) i wanted to do during the break. I met-ish, someone. then had to lie and i didnt even get his name. the sad part is that he is about 3 years,if not more, younger then me xD. yes, pathetic, i know (sorry Meeca >.<) but, on my defence he looks alot older then he appears. I'm so going to hunt (I'm not a stalker) him down and show my friends the 17 year old looking 8th grader.

Purpose

This blog was created for the fact that my Journalism teacher wants us to blog :P
and well, seeing as it's a class, i guess i must do so. but,i don't find blogging such a bad idea, its a good way of getting your opinions out and you can often bitch about people and they wont ever know about it :)
so, since i already do blog from time to time on myspace, whats so bad about doing it hear instead, more frequently as well [because i have to :( ]. so hears to blogging for Mr. Colley :P woo! lol.