drenched in vanilla twilight, i'll sit on the front porch all night

One word.
well maybe two.
AMAZINGLY HOT.
yes. yes. yes.
the aquintance is done, emails and profiles, all that is left is Mastering the flirting with out being obvious and getting phone numbers.
oh, and did i say how HOT he was lol.
and have family in europe, even better hehe lol.

i love europe, and just can't wait to go in december. about 28 days until i leave. i can't wait to see my nata babay :) oh how i love her <3

hold me now i need to feel complete, like i matter to the one i need.

I want my best friend.
i wish i could find a time machine and fast forward to Decemeber 22, when i finaly see her again.
i just miss her so much
31 days <3

I just want to know what your best friend knows

guys say we're complicated but i beg to differ.
Especialy in the perdicament that i currently am in. wow. that sounds retareded.
anyway. to the point.
if we are so complicated then why are they spending all their free time with us other then their girlfriend, wearing our sports shirts and even flirt back at times,and also never bring up the girl friend after showing us a song written for them. Why the frick to they do this. I know for me it is getting quite annoying. i want to do somthing but then there is her. all the signs point to the possibility, but then SHE is there. it's like argh.
either break up with the damn chick or stop with all the flirty crap. it's like a big slap in the face.
My biggest concern really is what is going on in HIS head. is it really just a newly developed good friendship, or the beginning of something more.

Damn What's your name

Jerika. Thank you jerika, for showing this song to me.


I dont know about everyone else, but i love His Voice <3

Would you trade that heart of cold for a minute in my skin

Ugh. I hate how when things seem perfect they ALWAYS mess up. Its getting to the point where i seriously dont know why i even bother anymore. If your not going to give a shit, then why should I? It's NOt likei dont already have enough things to worry about. What makes it worst is for once in my life everything felt right, everything with my friends is great, no drama,no issues, nothing. School was and still is great. If Only things at home could have still been the same. I try to ignore the problems. which i seem really good at. It makes things easier that way, i dont have to worry about friends being all "omg are you okay" and often i completely forget about it and can enjoy myself with my friends. But there is always somthing the ends up bringing it up in the end. especially when ima round them too.. I'm at home for a whole 48 hours on the weekends and its enough time for my mom to bitch at more for countless retarded reason and to say how much she hates me.
What a perfect life.
I could easily fix the problem, find a job in the city. then i dont have to worry about that bull. but they;ll call every day asking a million questions which doesnt help. and i miss my cat and enjoy two days of not having to make myself supper.
i just wish things would calm down, and go back to how it was those two months when school first started im really getting sick of all this.