rain, rain, go away, come again some other day

blahhh. today officially sucked.
if i were to blame it on anything it would be the weather, and the teacher for not canceling the damn trip.
you see, today, my semi intensive (bullshit) gym class had a trip to Mont Royal. Which is a place I've actually wanted to go for a long time. however, the whether today sucked ass. it was half raining all misty and kinda cold. so we saw shit all when we looked over, got all wet, i got blood on one of my favorite sweaters because my ear lob randomly decided to bleed, and blue over head marker on it ass well because the rain washed it all ont us. what a load of fun.. :(
being the geniuses that we were we got far behind of the walk and ended up going the wrong way, i would have jogged part of it, but no one wanted, i should have though. i wouldn't have been so far behind if i had. we also messed up the scavenger hunt, we completely missed the 268 steps we had to take to go down to peel, which doesn't actually bother me to much. we guessed the answers and got them right :p lol. but the day still sucked.

what also made it worst is i had to use public transport to get there. i really don't mind taking the metro, but i sucks when you don't know where you haveto get off or what bus to take. we missed our bus by 3 minutes and got at the chalet just in time. but now i can say i was able to use the metro by myself. which I'm proud to say. I'm really not used of it and almost got lost XD I'm that hopeless.

anyways. im off to have supper. I'm quite hungry and my sociology homework needs to be done.
xx Sam

lying there with a halo in her hair she cried, there are feathers everywhere but it's fine, you do this all the time.

this was corrected but my internet messed up and it didnt save and im to lazy to go over it again....


Life is weird, there is no other way to put it. it is genuinly weird.

there isnt anything wrong with that either, i'm actualy glad that its weird and unexpected, because if everything went as if it's suppsoed to be, nothing ever unexpectidly change it woudl be horrible. Imagine how borring that would be, suicide rates would certainly be at a record high if it ever happened.

Anyways, back to what im getting to.

I dont think i've every been more content in my life. it's strange really, you'd think being swamped with home work and tests to study for, boyfriend's being weird, my roomates messy friends (who are actualy pretty kool) the new concept of living on my own and the 6th of october fastly approaching id be rather nervouse, stress and probably slightly down. But i'm not. I dont feel down in anyways.

i think it's partly because of the people im around, back in highschool i spent so much time worry about stupid rumours and things that didnt matter and people who couldnt care less that it just brought me down. but now, that i'm away from all these people i dont have to worry about them and their bull so i'm happier. thats my theory anyways.

it coudl just be someone dosed my juice and i've unconciously been high on somthing for the past month. i'm more for the first conclusion :P.

anyways. Sociology calls, and i cant afford to mess up tomorrows test. freeking 20%, scary thought. anyways. chowxx

It got old, but you cant blame it all on me

wow. it seems as if so much has happened.
cegep, living on my own, break ups, back togetherness, another break up, another (secret) relationship, new friends, new roommates, broken door, iffy friends, homework. its all overwhelming. and all with a month as welll.
its horrible. some of thing things i can't really grasp properly either. Like. i partially feel like a whore. because, if you break it down i left my ex for a past love. i guess you could say. and i do really really like my bf. and i had waited so long that when the opportunity came i just couldn't say no. but it couldn't have come at any worst of a time. and there's the fact that my best friend doesn't like him. it kinda sucks. sometimes i think i should have waited and see. because like hey. this all might be a mistake. but if it is i'll just learn form it and deal with the mess it leaves when the time comes. any-who. on to other things. CEGEP
And well, it is just the best. i really love it. my course are great. minus my English class. we are completely re-learning how to write an essay. i think by the time i reach CEGEP i know how to write an essay, i've been doing it for only 4 years now, i think i know what im doing. to give an example who how pathetic it is, today was our theird class on how to write an introduction and making a good thesis. pathetic. i know. and to top it off. in im the highest english at my CEGEP. English used to be one of my favorite classes. as it is obvious my spelling and grammar are really not up to par. but i love to write and i enjoy most literature. but other then english being a shity class my other classes are pretty interesting and my schedule is to die for. :) i'd hate to brag, but i'm normally done by 3 every day of the week and i dont have the annoying 2 or three hour breaks between my classes; however, i do start at 8 everyday of the week excluding Friday. which i actually like, i can go out lat eon thursdays and i can sleep in on fridays. its great.

I absolutely love my new friend's ive made. they're great. abd really funny. i've really got my psych teacher to thank for it too. because if she hadn't made us turn around and say high to the people behind us i would have never met them. we're all pretty different but we all seem to get along really well. which i really like. and they aren't drama & attention craving people. which is nicee. im really sick of drama.